5 things pulling my performance down

Its not easy to specify the things which you are battling with, and the problems that you are not able to deal with effectively. The objective of this post is to list down these issues clearly and work upon it.

1. Deprived of Concentration: Staying concentrated on something has never been my strongest point but its affecting my performance big time now. A typical example of this is--I am reading some stuff related to my work and all of a sudden, I will jump to one of the blogs on gmat. I will start reading soemthing there and then I will remember that I am supposed to reply to that mail.
2. Delayed completion: Oh well, this could have passed out as a headline for some post too but lets leave it for another time. The second problem that I am encountering is that I never finish what I have started. It's affecting my studies, my work and other activities of my daily life. I will take something to 95% completion but just wont complete it, and will let it hang out there till such time as it doesnot become super-duper urgent.
3. Damn too much of planning: Oh yes, I also suffer from this. Once in a while, I get these fancy ideas, which I will quickly translate into one of those fancy looking excel sheets with timetables, colour-coated columns, details of to-do list on almost hourly basis, and a promise to revisit this sheet and keep a proper check. I am sure I must have nothing less than 10 different formats of what I intend to do. And it does not always restrict itself to work and study, it also includes the daily walk, exercise 4 days in a week, finishing one week every book, getting to know someone in my workplace, diet, habits, newspaper reading etc etc. Whuff! I am plain tired listing all the crap that I keep on dumping in these so called excel sheets (my panacea to heaven).
4. Dithering attitude: Why can't I keep on studying for half an hour that I have planned? Why can't I get up in the morning on time and not put the alarm on snooze or stop altogether---when I have promised myself that I will wake up on time? Why cant I stick to a decision and not dither midway? Why?
5. Distractions: Oh, you decided you will study for a good couple of hours or you will read a book. And there God conspires against you and send you some little distraction from somewhere, which you cant seemingly overcome. It may be going out for a movie, an interesting program on tv while you just happen to flip some channel, you remmeber all of a sudden that fantastic junk food sold around the corner of your street, an urge to drive and listen to some music, an old friend who you haven't called for a long time, that address change that you need to do so that your magazine reaches you on time, that packet of groceries lying somewhere in the kitchen that you haven't sorted and stored properly. And I can go on and on.

But you know guys, whats the only medicine to cure these 5 'D's. Well, its another 'D'.

DISCIPLINE.

Back without a bang:(

Hi,
I logged into this accoutn after a long time, and was surprised to see that my last post was in July 2007, an astonishing 7-8 months ago. Time flies. I dint even realize that its been such a long time since I am absent from this blog.

Here's an update on what all I have done and not done in last few months-
The not-so-nice-to-look-at first:
1. Previous assignment- Moved away from the group with which I was associated for almost 5 years. In some ways, this is not what I wanted to do but then you dont always have a choice.
2. Assignment now- I have been given a different asisgnment, and this one sucks. No, not because the work is not interesting or people are difficult to handle but because I am not working and I have been quite passive about my work. The writing on the wall is clear- have to finish my assignment, report, presentation in next 6 weeks, and then decide whether I want to stay here and carry on or move to a different department within same organization. I am just wondering how my superior is gonna evalauate me....my performance on this particular assignment surely sucks
3. GMAT Prep- Have not done anything except register on www.mba.com and take a date for the test- 2nd april. Yes thats the date that I have taken. I am on my 4th day of prep and gmat is 47 days away. I am buying OG 11 and Kaplan today, have finished a large part of PR already.
4. Arguments, fights on-n-off with my loved ones. (Why do I need to have such strong opinions about everything...ahh)
5. Oh I was refused a visa for visiting a country because one of the pages had some watermark---had to get a new passpost in a jiffy, and now waiting for my visa. Now this reminds me I need to update my passport details with Pearson Vue. (now see this is the benefit of blogging.)
6. New year resolutions made and not kept.
7. Had a very unpleasant experience in the workplace---will never be able to forget it.

Now some nice-things-to-look-at:
1. Moved into a nice, big, better looking apartment last year.
2. Got my first car (Oh thats a different thing that got few dents/marks here and there ,with me being a first time user, and yes, have claimed insurance once (that was a freak accident----I bunked second half of my office on a windy rainy day to go out and do something different---and not spoil the mood by sitting inside and look at rain from the window of my office----thanks to low visibility and one wrong move, the front door on left side of car got a big ugly looking dent. only good news- got all other dents etc fixed while claiming insurance! Alright for the awareness of readers- people generally say that if you can drive in the city that I reside in, you can drive anywhere in the world--dont be a morose, let me help myself in getting my spirits high)
3. Sister's marriage is fixed. She moved to a different city, and got a better job.
4. Participated in a big event at the Group level, and reached National Finals.
5. Got in touch with some long lost friends thru orkut.

So, thats all as of now. I wanted to sum up the key things that have happened in last few months and will write another post for the things which await in the future.

Cyaa